Nightmares

I've had some really awful dreams lately. Last nights was by far the worst. I woke up so sad. First it involved Nikki, my sweet little kitty passing away, and Brian was trying to console me as I clung to her little urn, and I swear I could still hear her purring inside it! Then my nightmare turned it's focus to Trent. It was unimaginable, the grief felt so real. I woke up and immediately went to look at him. Of course, he was sleeping peacefully in his crib, looking all gorgeous and angelic.

WTF is going on in my head that is manifesting itself into dreams like this??? It's just torture.